jan check in

-grateful for grace (for helping plan things), michael (taking pics with me of v stressful letters), uncle ken & auntie alice (for supporting our family), aundrey and jackie (for supporting me with forrest stuff)
-danny solorzano and ypar students in our ethn321 class, super inspiring and heartwarming and invigorating!
-started my figure drawing art class
-met with g.diaz and x.sanchez
-steadily getting shit done
-splash conference was fun but only a couple students showed up
-visited san diego!! hotpot with friends

december check in

pc: steph kang

-cohort dinner @ thomas', dsa rally about tax bill, kinda weird w/ white socialists everywhere
-tax bill, daca, net neutrality, aca, trump diminishing national park lands, skirball fire, the muslim ban being allowed by supreme court, trump declaring jerusalem the capital, $700 bil to the military??? everything feels like compounded punches to my gut and i have no time to breathe and recuperate before the next assault. what the hell is happening
-finished my first grad quarter!!!

november check in

-got ears pierced

-latina evangelicas event

-started leading warmups for primary site

-bowling with e and cohort

-bought skirt outfits

-reconnected with enlace, doing design work for them

-connections lunch at newsong. interesting

-got denied calfresh bc late bc stupid housemates are disgusting pigs

-thanksgiving break! super fun and not restful but terrific

-working on teaching portfolio

-attica uprising event and finding cleveland event
-this month absolutely flew by, totally forgot to check in

october check in

-really dislike my 425 teacher
-also really dislike la driving? stupid hit and run
-super triggering racial microaggressions at christian fellowship
-celebrated esther's bday for first time in person since high school
-have like ten bug bites wtf
-happy about la dates
-things i have been enjoying lately: my magic bullet, my cosrx aha toner, my new backpack, my planner, my allbirds, my rainbows
-found potential church home elsewhere
-also bought more things huehue (lens switcher, video stabilizer, calligraphy pen)
-feel so dumb, woke up late for advisor meeting & sat on my sunglasses blah

september check in

-big bear trip with sd friends
-tweaked my knee
-bought a bunch of stuff from amazon lol (key organizer, acne things, poopourri)
-also bought allbirds and new running shoes and camera backpack and laptop backpack
-moved in most my stuff into apt, roommate is disgusting dirty :(
-here are some adjectives that come to mind when people use their social media platforms (particularly facebook) as a megaphone for their emotions: unlovely, distasteful, shameless, narcissistic, egocentric, repulsive; have some dignity??
-7:28 mi!!!

august check in

-v strange encounter at daiso with tiff and spectrum with siblings
-albert & family since july
-took my cset again lol hope i passed; edit// lol did not
-got pedicures with sister
-helped yolanda with siblings?? was strange. also almost got attacked by a dog
-observed teacher in la, appreciated his carino fueled pedagogy and his faith. also i hate driving in la. and i walked my forehead into a metal gate
-bible studies at wintersburg
-dyed our hair
-with siblings: got the strawberry shortcake again, was not the same :( got overpriced mochi ice creams, watched dunkirk, game nights, visited pavilion park, dinner at the filipino market
-visited sd friends for games and ice cream and korean food
-helped joshua move in to his first apt
-ran 9:33/9:28 for the first time ever!
-biked back bay loop with alicia & sagun
-bought like 5 exposed binding moleskines lol very excited

learning to dream part v

i enjoy reading my old posts. it's simultaneously embarrassing and encouraging, hilarious and grounding. i learn from my old self. it's also a slightly out-of-body experience to reflect on how we experience time in different periods of our lives: during college time was jam packed with events and afterwards, time began to feel outstretched or like a callous impasse. it was only when i learned to set signposts for myself that i began to once again feel like i was moving towards something.

since my last post in 2013 (wow): i have seen a burgeoning movement of christians hungry for a holistic, justice/compassion-minded gospel. i am not going to berkeley for grad school but i am going to ucla where plenty of critically minded scholars are. i haven't gotten a new sony body, but i have added two more lens to my collection. i did get better at bouldering (but i also got injured in 2015 and it became chronic), i did buy a roadbike, and i did run a half marathon.

what do i dream of now? marriage. also a doggo. developing relationships with the ES now coalition, and working to build more ES programs in socal. getting a phd one day to teach ES in cc or university settings. seeing e get his nursing degree(s).

i dream of full recovery of my pip joint injury; i dream that i will not stop running or climbing or biking. i would like to visit as many (or every) national park. my dreams have changed in scope; they have become more career/hobby/marriage oriented. idk if that's good or bad, i think it just is what it is.

nov 2013 part iv
april 2012 part iii
nov 2011 part ii
feb 2011 part i

sidenotes;
this blogspot is kind of like a time capsule.
today's eunice enjoys poke, finally is able to run an almost 8 min mile, has had to deal with a finger injury for over 2 years, has learned a lot about the transience of friendships and also of human character/values, feels more focused than ever on the goals of the next handful of years, enjoys podcasts, can do 8 pull ups, and also enjoys shows like mr. robot, westworld, and legion.

july check in

-pr of 8 pull ups!
-my mile times are getting more consistent yay
-i hit 8:12 mi for the first time ever!
-switched to oneplus phone & also e got me a pebble watch for running
-started @ probation center, my kids are good kiddos and it's sad that i'm leaving soon
-lol cset module 1 attempt 2
-excited for j3 to come home next week
-six flags trip with sd friends

june check in

-tough month bc pip joint injury and wrist injury and arguments
-started running
-j left for his mission trip qq
-started teaching dts class w/ herald
-moving home end of the month
-esther and i saved a birby that flew into the window
-this month i broke the temples of my glasses... twice lmao. first by sitting on them second by standing on them sigh thank god for superglue

may check in

-got a haircut
-picked up brother from berkeley
-friend broke his leg
-did my talk about AsAm identity pt 2
-i think i'm all sorts of insecure about friendships
-sf trip

april check in

source: me

-first red rock trip! worked on monkey bar right v6 and angel dyno left exit v4

-bought our first rope! sport climbing a little more
-all my succulents are dying lol qq
-feeling burnt out with work but june is right around the corner and i'll be done with my difficult site
-looking for housing in la is hard :(
-ayce sushi and beacon park and chipotle with grace & justin
-sd trip! vallartas, del mar beach, boba, board games, dinner at the chius

march check in

source: me

-my new 14mm f1.8 came in
-my instagram got hacked lmao

-five unauthorized purchases on my credit card lmao

-got sick :(

-trying to fix my finger but doctors appts/insurance stuff is really frustrating

february check in

source: me

-the prospect of re-entering the sphere of social engagement feels like "coming home"

-waiting for ucla admissions o m g
-feeling more confident about design! particularly vectorizing hand lettering and using ai properly
-2 more p.e. sessions wat
-I GOT IN!
-pms is a real thing tho so miserable and exhausted

january check in

source - me

-big decisions are really scary? i want to factor and control as many aspects as possible and i don't know when/where to draw some hard lines and just go for it. aka grad school, also lol bc i was doing research about grad school this time last year and it almost feels like i just scrambled around a racetrack and ended where i started
-whenever people give me negative feedback about grad school i feel v uncertain
-but i talked to more people and feel kind of reassured of my own decision lmao

-did my ucla interview huzzah

-love hand lettering
-e started his new job and classes!

december check in

source: me

-it's december! looking forward to close out this year. was tough but learned a lot and i'm relieved this year is coming to a close

-in the beginning of this year, i was desperate to get a better job, to move out, and to figure out what i wanted to do for grad school. by god's grace i have done all three

-some other milestones this year: learned design, started pe counseling, started budgeting monthly and tithing, bought my own laptop, started paying for my own car insurance, was a bridesmaid, ran a half marathon
-spent last couple days with sd friends! hot pot n stuff

november check in

source

-encouraged at the asian american ministry conference by an analogy of the necessary posture/attitude for jazz improvisation/ministry improvisation

-great day in sd @ vh, the chang's, & w/ pnick & nat

-cset was a miserable fail

-finishing grad school app

-finally cold this month

-get to contribute a few paragraphs to the intro of dr. hertig's new academic journal!

-crazy week of design and life's pace picked up unexpectedly bc...

-moooooving out!!

october check in

-short visit to sd to visit efci and harvesters and climb at mesa rim. got regents & baguette bros & infinitea; i miss sd food :<
-took and passed my cbest
-visited la for lax preview climbing event; got some poke and visited esther
-e finishing cna class soon!
-wrote my statement of purpose, studying for cset
-nine years this month? wow

sept check in

-zion trip! hiked angels landing
-started pe counseling
-started my new job
-e started cna training
-anniversary number 3
-bought tenaya iati's
-allergy season, so hot lately :(

august check in

source

-orientation with ocde, site placements assigned too!

-finally got my 35 mm f1.7 lens!
-bought a laptop/camera backpack for my new toys
-steadily strengthening my wrist back to 100%
-dropped off siblings at their schools
-difficult week but transitioning quickly
-impulse bought an eeyore tsum tsum

july check in

source

-grace & justin visited
-started weekly hangouts with youth
-23! such a baby
-bought laptop finally
-bought new prescription glasses and sunglasses finally
-visited pnick & natalie
-sprained wrist :(
-made bruschetta and bibimbap and watermelon smoothies
-what is the purpose and value of waiting?
-i feel like a different person every year

june check in

source

-planted my sucuulents
-last week at bgcgg

-grace & justin's wedding!

-joshua's graduation

-finally got my teeth cleaned at the dentist a year after graduating

-finally got my hives checked out and my doctor was an absolute phony and just prescribed me claritin
-second (third) interview for ocde
-ceramics with joshua and esther
-tsy's wedding
-vbs
-brought joshua to berkeley! visited friends, ici's, mission cliffs, atlas cafe, bjm, dogpatch boulders, algorithm coffee, uc botanical garden, sliver. super restful and enjoyable getaway but missing e and e2

-feel noticeably more adjusted to postgrad life

may check in

source

-ran half marathon
-still have hives :(
-photoshoot for inheritance in the rain
-esther's home for the summer!
-met ethnic studies now organizers and ucla tep students at the raza conference
-got my hair cut!
-took the GRE lol

april check in

source

-pulse check, still alive lol and it's almost may
-ran 10 miles for the first time
-e started his new job!
-steep but short learning curve for photoshop
-#justinlovewithyoo wedding party get together
-taught fnf with e
-my generation's reality is that we need grad degrees to be sustainably employable
-reallocating all my munnies so that i can be wiser with my income
-visited world impact
-weird hives episode :(
-interview!!

march check in

source

-what does it mean to be purposeful day to day?

-adventure playground with e
-america on track maybe idk
-started bgcgg job
-registered to vote
-contacted world impact, scheduled visit
-signed up for gre lol poor
-esther back for break
-almost ran six miles non-stop
-joshua got college acceptance letters
-working towards joining marketing/design team at s1

february check in

source

-what does it mean to be resilient and what does it look like?

-poor this month

-visit sd friends

-interviews and stuff for bgc

-frequently discouraged by life stage

-training for half marathon

-e and i rescued shelby bear :3
-went to cgu info session
-got car back!!!
-ISAAC symposium was encouraging
-UCLA MAT?