resilience, n.;
1. the capacity to withstand or to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness
2. the ability of a substance or object to spring back into shape; elasticity
is resilience to double down and take the beating, take the abuse? to grow callous and tough to protect oneself, not realizing that in your quest to protect your soft insides you have lost softness after all. or is resilience to "spring back into shape" as if nothing happened. to say, i'm alright, everything's fine -- i am just as i am [read: before this abuse]. if that's what resilience means, i don't want it.
i do not owe the institution any part of me; the institution does not define or validate or permit my existence.
