i want to learn conversational french, italian, korean, japanese, & spanish -- and then i want to travel. i want to learn the art of making petite gateaux and latte art. i want to go to a vienna philharmonic performance. i want to learn the logistics of using a canon camera, and then i want to take milk toof/danbo-esque pictures of my own creations in europe and asia.
before that, i desire so much to go to northwestern. or... or cal. i want to join an intervarsity group. as a side job, i'd want to teach flute to elementary kids. and when i decide not to dorm on campus, i want to get an apartment and save up money to go on an ikea shopping spree. i also want to audition for an orchestra and be able to play gustav holst's the planets. all of them! and a few mahler symphonies. some bernstein & gershwin would be muy delightful too. i want to do children ministry abroad. anywhere, everywhere. i want to visit orphanages and minister to the children there--and then i want to minister to cancer stricken kids and their families. i want to raise money for invisible children and world vision. i want to treasure the friendships i have today for years and years to come. i want to see my elementary best friends & high school best friends come to know christ intimately and passionately.
i want to go to live concerts by john mayer, michael buble, jason mraz, and adele.
i want to apply to upenn for grad school. i want to meet jasmine choi at curtis institute. i want to play in a masterclass with amy porter and jeffrey khaner. i want to play the dutilleux sonatine and the sancan sonatine.
i want a toller or aussie puppy, named razzmatazz or chantilly.
i want to meet a guy who pursues christ daily. i want him to have a passion for something, to love music, to love children, to be compassionate and encouraging and wise. i want him to be the things i'm not: more adventurous, less introverted. i want to be able to have thoughtful conversations with him-and i want to have a system of honesty with no cowardly mind games. i want to be able to ask him questions when i'm confused about something in the bible. i want to learn how to snowboard, dirt bike, dune buggy, & mountain climb with him.
i've accepted the fact that i know what kind of guy i want: and i've only got to wait and never, ever compromise my beliefs or dreams for something less. i've also accepted and embraced the fact that God put the desire in my heart to be pursued--just as God wishes to be pursued by us. and until i meet whoever it is i am to meet, i will pursue God because it's in doing so that i will find someone likewise pursuing God.
eventually, i want kids. a son, and then twin girls. but i can't know for sure (: i want to live in the east coast and have an arts and crafts room where i can do artsy things with my kids.
i want to be alive when some genius cures cancer.
i want to visit taiwan again, to talk to my relatives whom i don't know well at all.
as for short term things,
i still need to make a master cd of my favorite music
thought to ponder;
does being pursued equate to passivity?
how do i find a balance?
